Just don’t have the time

I am wondering if I should really just give his uni thing the flick until I have a job that is closer to home (or in the bcd at least).  I was explaining to hubby last night that I just don’t have the motivation with the remaining hour of my day to do study, which is putting me on the back foot, and I can’t really spend all weekend studying as that is the time I actually get to do shopping, housework and general outings (like seeing friends).  I am not able to give uni my focus or even any attention at all, and I am feeling guilty about that and slightly annoyed with myself.

I do want to do it, but I am just not sure I can….I want to spend time losing weight, which means that last hour i should be doing exercise and i am not doing that because I am doing study….or neither because I am frustrated at not having time for both….

Vicious cycle….


It’s a girl thing….

yeah, it’s a girl thing to spend a week every month lacking motivation in everything, life, study, exercise, brain function………gah….

I have 2 weeks of study I need to be doing and I cannot find the drive to even log in, because it will require brain power that I just don’t have today, I am home alone, hubby is out with the boys and it would be perfect…well it was a perfect plan until the girl things happened and then made me lose all hope in humanity!




Sad Panda

Sad Panda from somewhere on the web.

So now I am going to log in and see if i can focus on at least 30 minutes worth of reading…..wish me luck.

Update on my ear

Sorry for all the posting I am doing today/tonight.  I am just really not wanting to get off my new mac 🙂 HAHHAH

I had my post up follow up today for my ear, and the Dr said it is healing very well.  The only problem there is some sponge which has kind of stuck itself to my ear, so now that hehas most of th esponge out, I have to put about 5/6 drops into my ear, 3 times a day in the hopes it dissolves and loosens it better. Fingers crossed really.  Must remember to put some in shortly. Perhaps make a chai to go with it.

I also found out I have some of this sponge behind my ear drum, which will probably take about 3/4 weeks to completely dissolve and explains why I am still not able to hear very well.  I have to admit I can hear better since he took the majority of the sponge out, although I still have trouble if there is too much background noise…very annoying since there is always some sort of noise.

I also did some study tonight and hubby somehow managed to wade through all the crap on the dining table and completely clear it of everything on there. I am so very impressed.  It just means less work for me tomorrow.

I am running errand day tomorrow…I have to go to highpoint, then get the car checked for this ludicrous EPA fine thing, then make some phone calls which have to be during normal business hours of 9-5 (which is difficult at work due to the nature of the office) and then I have to get some groceries for our dinner guests etc and I just decided with a day like that I would just not go into work and take it as unpaid.

Hubby is sitting behind me looking up law degrees and I am so very proud of him for taking the step into investigating this. I really do hope he finds a degree/uni that is suitable. I would love to see him do something he wants to do as a career and not just something he fell into and happens to be good at. let’s face it, as I have said before, he is excellent at anything he does…it drives me mental sometimes, but it just means I have complete confidence in his ability to pick up something like law and make it a successful career. Could be very interesting times ahead if we are both studying degrees!! Imagine exam time…EEEEEK!

Tomorrow is one of my best friends mothers funerals.  I have not responded to her general status updates on fb and such as (and I could be very wrong) she is well aware there is nothing anyone can say that will make this easier for her.  However I know she is a write at heart and so to be updating at least gets it out there for her, whether people respond or not.  She knows we are here for her and she knows the extent to which any of us would go for her at the drop of a hat should she need anything.  I just don’t think it needs repeating and I certainly feel a little selfish for constantly repeating it to her.  Almost like I am saying it to make myself feel better about her feeling so awful….Not sure I explained that very well.  I know tomorrow is going to be truly horrible for her with everything she is going through and it is never nice to bury someone you love (on any level).

If you read this sweety, please just breathe and remember that she is no longer in that body but standing with you, as B will be. Draw on his strength, that’s why we have companions in life and love.

Anyway, I am going to make myself a chai and then sit down and fall asleep on the couch.  I am beat.




I had been waiting for my mum to post before I did and it has been driving me mental!!! I am going to the airport tonight to finally pick up the new family members!!!

They are landing pretty late tonight so likely I will not be out of bed until midday tomorrow! I am excited and nervous and happy and all the other things, I am glad this is finally over for mum and I hope they are happy together for a very long time. Here’s to having more kids!!

Our car loans are finally paid off as well!!! We sent the money over on Tuesday! So no more direct debits etc and I got paid yesterday and we still had money in the bank and our wallets!! Couldn’t believe it!! Yay!!!! Financially normal again!!

More excitement, a friend of ours has come back to australia after about 5 years. Shame they are in tassie but I am looking forward to building that friendship up again!

Sweet week!

Back into study…and other things

I opened my first weeks work on Monday and you know what I had to do….create an online persona….2 of my assignments require an ongoing web presence….fake one of course – or whatever you want really…so I have created a completely serparate WP blog, with twitter, facebook and Deviantart id….I also have to everntually create delicious as well – not that I am a fan of world wide bookmarks…but hey it must be done 🙂

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Slowly feeling more human

Friday…already..what a wasted week I have spent….all week laying down because I have been far too ill to do anything else 😀

I am feeling moderately human today, which I am liking.  I have to pit my ear drops in and have some brekkie, but I am not feeling like I am going to topple over when I turn my head.  Always a good sign I believe.

I managed to combat the motion sickness when I was on the Spirit of Tasmania ship, by just moving with the waves instead of fighting it, but sadly I am on solid ground and cannot use any such tricks here….

I may attempt to do some vacuuming today – and will complete the dishes I started last night.  The vacuum cleaner we have is super awesome so it will be just like I am walking around and not having to actually do much movement…

We are having some people over tomorrow arvo/might for hubby’s birthday and I won’t be drinking (obviously) but I can certainly make sure the house is clean and an acceptable standard for someone just out of surgery.  Honestly there is like 7 people coming over, so it is nothing major, but I still want the place to be tidy!

My next unit of stufy starts soon, I am just waiting for the letter and login details to arrive…hopefully I can better deal with this degree and be finished sooner rather than later.

We really need to refinance and consolidate our debt…sadly financial institutes are bothersome and do not really care about the individuals situations or circumstances.  But we will push forward.  I am in discussion with our current mortgage holders to see if there is anything they can do for us, and if not, we will just have to leave things as they are for a couple more years and battle through.  We are scraping by every fortnight but only by the skin on our teeth to be honest….we have had some very lucky weeks.

For example – this fortnight – every single bill comes out of our account – that is $2000 we need to find.  Luckily hubby got paid loadings this week and combined with my pay it just covers all of those bills and leaves us with (hopefully) enough money to survive on.  However next fortnight only half come out….it is just the way the cookie crumbles but it means that every fortnight we have no idea if we are going to make it through…I don’t get paid this week either as I took an advance since I was not going to be at work this week to collect my wage.  So I don’t paid again until next Thursday but by then most of the bills should be paid and that will give us money to fund the following week, so if everything goes to plan – we should be fine this fortnight….might even try and get a leg up on next fortnight and put some money aside….actually thinking about that – we aren’t that badly off this fortnight….see I like writing, sometimes it just clears the head space!

Mum and her visa saga are still ongoing – we are getting one step closer each day, but it certainly doesn’t feel like it.  I am not really sure how much mum has left – I can only do so much and not entirely sure I am really doing enough.  I can go and visit and offer as many pep talks as she needs but it will never be enough to combat the stress.  There is a request for the passports now so surely that means they are going to stick the visas in and voila – all done???  Maybe not so far away – then all she will have to stress about is feeding 6 people instead of 1 😀  HAHAHAAH  SUCKER!!!  It will certainly be a bloody happy day when they get on planes!


So I got 97% and a HD for my previous module, in all honest I couldn’t work out if thy was my exam or module result…either way I kicked arse on that.

I spent most of last night trying to complete my other assignment and I am having real trouble writing about managers….I have never worked under what I would consider a good manager and so I am having trouble keeping my assignment objective and uncolored by negative experience. Perhaps a little harsh but so very true!!

I have barely done any study and I really need to start getting into it

Bikemania has taken over at our house since the try it free session. Hubby even bought a book with bike sales a d has Ben looking into what bike he wants to buy!!! The joys of having a chance to look up things at work!?!?!

I really want to do my l’s but I just don’t have time or money right now. The money thing I am planning on improving after June, once I have gotten dad caught up with the tax man.