What a fucking shitty week…

Not for me, but for my friends in Sydney…There seems to be far too much hurt happening and there is nothing I can do about it to help them except offer support via email and phone etc.

One of my besties in Sydney let her mum just over 4 months ago, now her step dad has just passed as well due to cancer.  Her brothers have now lost both parents within such a short period and I just have no words to express my sorrow.

The painter at work lost his dad 6 months ago, and 2 weeks ago, lost his mum as well.  He also lost a brother last year.

Another friend in sydney lost her sister earlier this year and has just announced she and her husband of 12 years are separating due to differences. They have 2 children and she is moving back to her parents place in another state.

Another friend in Sydney has advised she s seeking fertility advice as she and her husband are having issues falling pregnant.

And to keep it going, another friend in Sydney has just lost his mother – 2 weeks ago and that is obviously still very fresh for him.

I lost someone this year that wasn’t overly close to me on a personal level, but on a religious level she meant a great deal to me as she was the introduction to the path I now follow.

These last few months have been horrible for all my friends and I just cannot understand how it can happen to so many people at once.  When summed up like this I just feel so completely horrible that I am not on the phone with them and attempting to make them feel better, but what do you say to someone who is dealing with this kind of raw emotional output.

I just wish I was closer to these people, both territorially and emotionally so the support I offer could be useful….

Modelling? LOL

My bestie in Sydney, is having a modelling day with some gorgeous women…and I have been invited…I am wondering whether I can pull it off?  I have never been very photogenic and I am not very comfortable in my current state, however there is one major reason why I am even contemplating this….

to be able to show off down the track.

My friend is a fabulous photographer – she says she still needs to learn to play with shadows (whatever!!) but even without that she manages to capture people on film so beautifully….(not just people, but that is the focus of this shoot). I am a terrible people photographer…I am much better at landscapes and nature….she is amazing…that picture with S on the chair…REOW!!  Still sticks in my mind…I wonder if I can convince her to let me get a print of that….mmmm there’s a thought…would be a great bedroom shot…..above the vanity mirror….maybe I should take my camera and take shots of everything that is non person related 🙂 that os my talent…HAHAH

anyway, tangent there….

I would be able to look at these photos and feel sexy I am sure, but it also means in say 12 months, I could ask her to do more shots of me (hopefully skinnier) and then more again later, that would chart my progress so to speak.  They could show the internal change as I am sure it would be possible to see a change in expression over time with regards to be comfortable in front of a camera….

Either way I am honoured to be invited and I really hope I don’t chicken out at the thought….

The other thing to note about this shoot, and I really want to support her with this, is because this is the first one since her mother passed and I think it shows she is getting her footing back into something resembling normal life and I want to be there to support that.

Sydney

Sydney. What can I say? 🙂 I think I really do love this town!

We stayed at a best mates place for the first couple of days as previously mentioned and we caught up with my other best mate and his boyfriend.

Spent a massive day walking around the CBD, looking at shops and eating then coffee etc, was very cool. I have missed them a lot 🙂

We had an awesome dinner cooked for us on Sunday night and I made tiramasu for desert. But the beef and guinness stew was delicious! We also met a really nice girl called sara and hubby was a little surprised at how similar me and get were 🙂

Also have managed to meet up with Carolyn and her partner, Tim and his partner, Trevor and Gabby (all on separate occasions) and somehow we are not yet insane! Partners I had never met before either!!!

I have spent a bucketload of time driving around Sydney to pick and drop off and meet up and to be quite honest I am fucking exhausted 🙂 I think Sydney drivers are nuts and just as unpredictable as Melbourne drivers, however – Sydney drivers STILL know how to merge onto freeways and that is awesome!!

Currently I am standing at the train station waiting to head into the city with and lunch with shannon as we are not going to see her again before we leave for Melbourne tomorrow! I am going to miss her immensely.

We have plans for this evening as well in which we will be catching up with even more friends and hopefully not having too late a night – we have to check out by 10 am!! Lol

Heading back to Melbourne tomorrow and I really don’t know how I feel about it, I really have enjoyed being back here and I have enjoyed catching up with everyone, but is that because it is a holiday? If, for example, we did move back here, would we fit into our friends lives anymore or would we barely see them? Would I find a job, would we be happy with renting again, etcetcetcetcetc
🙂

Train is here now, so I am going to sign off for thr moment! Have a great day everyone!

Driving to Sydney!!!!!

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We have arrived in the town I grew up in….SYDNEY!!!!! Yes I have missed you and I am so glad we finally arrived. Yass was he’ll on earth and caused us to lose just over an hour, mental note to self – stop at goulburn or the Tucker box next time….avoid yass!!!

We stuck the Tom Tom on and darth guided us to the wonderfully awesome kogarah footy field. We caught up with an old friend and her partner for dinner which was beautiful!! She looks so happy and vibrant. I am so very happy for her.

The game was awesome, freezing cold on the hill, but I enjoyed myself immensely. I scored a new jumper out of it, which I plan to wear everyday for the next three years! Bought hubby a rain coat as well which he has been wanting for a while. Dragons gear of course!!

Sadly the dragons ruined their 10 game winning streak and we lost the game. Thankfully hubby and I left the game midway through he last half as we did. Not want to get stuck amidst the traffic leaving the oval….gridlock after driving from Melbourne was not something we were willing to deal with.

We then headed to our friends place, she had offered her place even if she was not home for the weekend. I cannot express how grateful we were for the offer and we are going to have to find her a lovely gift as repayment.

Anyway she has a very nice place!! I want it 🙂 Hubby and I were staying in the kids room and basically lasted long enough to get the beds sorted before we crashed. Prety sure we didn’t even bring the suitcase inside. I just slept in my clothes I was that wrecked!!

All in all I am glad we made it. Photos will be incoming later, however I am typing these up on the iPad and I can’t get images from my phone to the iPad easily, so I will do one big post later with everything!

Back into study…and other things

I opened my first weeks work on Monday and you know what I had to do….create an online persona….2 of my assignments require an ongoing web presence….fake one of course – or whatever you want really…so I have created a completely serparate WP blog, with twitter, facebook and Deviantart id….I also have to everntually create delicious as well – not that I am a fan of world wide bookmarks…but hey it must be done 🙂

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