My twilight obsession :D (and subsequent defence)

If you are likely to take offence easily at me attacking all the twi-haters out there, I would suggest you read no further 😀 I pull no punches on this one, there is strong violence, strong language and yes probably a lot of name calling and feminism hating in this post 🙂

I would suggest you skip over it if you feel so inclined, or just laugh this off as my attempt at defending the story that I have come to love very dearly.

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Too god damn emotional….

I don’t really remember when my temper started getting the better of me, i don’t remember always feeling the wrath boiling under the surface.  I know it happened some time in my teenage years but I am not sure when.

There was a lot that happened in my 18 – 20 years bracket and I wonder if that whole section of time just fills me with an anger that can’t be sated.  I explode at the drop of a hat and with no warning.  I don’t even have time enough to think about my reactions because by the time i realise I have exploded, I can’t do anything to stop it.

Hubby and I had a very good discussion about this the other night, hence my post to twitter that I am going to get it under control, and not two days later I have already failed and lost my temper 4 times today that I can easily remember.  I chided myself afterwards for getting angry, hence why I actually remember the four things.

Each time, I was angry because of other objects or creatures (human included) getting in the way and causing me extra hassle.  I don’t like extra hassle I have decided. I like things to work, straight away with no complications, I like people listening to me and doing what they are told, I like being in control at all times and I like knowing things will be exactly as I left them when I return.

I have to get this under control.

But now – I have to go and do a workout and perhaps get rid of some of that aggression 🙂  I have done 2 hours of uni work – and achieved very little (I have not done any more on my assignment due in 5 days), and now i just feel I need to move my fat arse off this chair!!!

Salvaging a business…

Most people who know me, know that I have always wanted to be my own boss and run my own business….this experience with my father has taught me 2 very valuable things

1 – never, ever, let anyone be in complete control and not understand where the business is at

2 – never ever let things get behind as it can be almost too hard to catch up.

I am in shock and complete confusion over what has happened to the “family” business.  I have no idea if we are doing any better or worse than before we started….it’s more of a vent then anything else so please feel free to ignore this post or just skip over it 🙂

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Security measures – Just a rant :D

I have honestly had enough of society.  I am sick to death of the multiple levels of security we have to go through every fucking day, because – like today – I didn’t update my  mobile on one of my banking sites and now I don’t have access to my funds because they need to send me something via post.

Even after I answered all their security questions and verification……tell me whats the point of having a verification process  if that means you still don’t know who I am…..

I wanted to withdraw some funds from my savings just to cover us, however they send an SMS code – to my old phone….so I wanted that updated…..can’t do it.  You can verify it is me, but you can’t verify it is me because I didn’t list a home or work number?  They would call me back on those numbers…..well sorry to tell you but I am not working – so I have no work number and I didn’t have a home phone at the time we signed up for the account….so um…..pretty stupid confirmation method if you ask me….

So she has to mail me the code…..MAIL IT TO ME!!!!  SNAIL FUCKING MAIL!!!!!!!  How about email to the address I use to log in every time – no someone could have access to that as well………..SERIOUSLY?@?@??@@?@

I DON”T WANT FUCKING SMS ALERTS AND BULLSHIT!!!!!!!  I Don’t want to be delayed when i want to do things, I already waited 5 days for the funds to even fucking appear in my account – now I have to wait 5 days for the snail mail to turn up and then I have to wait another 5 days for the money to transfer back….

I am closing the account.

I am sick to death of this stuffing about you have to do everywhere you go.  Anytime you call people you have to have a passcode or secret question or remember your last transaction…..I can’t remember my own fucking birthday half the time and you want me to remember how many different passcodes etc??

If people (humans, society, wankers) weren’t such dickheads and let their stuff get stolen we wouldn’t be in the situation we are in now – IRL or online. Watch your fucking handbag/wallets – scan your pc for virus’ – stop looking up porn and don’t open emails from people you don’t know…..GRAAAAHHHHHH

Hubby would tell me not to get angry at something I can’t control, I get angry because I am sick and tired of the constant bullshit and I don’t understand why I have to be inconvenienced – yes it is all about me!!  OMG. I think I need to restart this life scenario….play it over again with a better outcome…..