One of those days

Ever had one of those days where everything you do or touch gets fucked up.  That is me today 🙂

I can’t get my pc to do a zip file, I can’t load my website to submit my assignment, I can’t log into a site I wanted to get into, I spilt coffee all over myself, someone (who shall remain nameless) put the pegs on top of the washing machine so whilst on the spin cycle they went everywhere, i created a new email for job hunting and couldn’t get that set up on my phone and well many other things today happened.

Hubby has been telling me to calm down all day and so far it has just not worked.

So I cracked the shits and went for a workout, thought maybe some exercise might help release some happy high….found out all the songs on my iphone have been wiped at some point, so went to plug it back in but my computers won’t connect with Synergy so I can’t access my Itunes to update it.

Almost threw my phone and decided to stream radio – except they streamed nothing but advertisements for the 5 minutes I was jogging, so I stopped jogging and turned my phone off.  I continued my workout in silence.

I am waiting for the high to kick in but I actually have a headache now and I am wondering if I am dehydrated.  So I will be going to grab my water bottle when i finish this post and I will drink as much of that as I can 😀

Yup – ONE OF THOSE DAYS!!!!

And then I nearly posted this to my gaming blog!!!!  AARRGGGHHHH!!!!

Meltdown

2 days ago, on the 26th, I had a complete and total meltdown. i was slamming doors, throwing tanties and balling my eyes out hysterically.

Hubby the calmness that he is was trying to find out what was wrong and I kept saying “I don’t know!”, well yelling at no one in particular really, tears streaming down my face.  So I went into the bedroom, crawled under the blankets and cried.

Hubby walked in and started stroking me….he always knows what to do in what situations….after a few minutes he pipes up and says something – I have no idea what it was now – but i just remember crying at him and saying that he was going to leave me coz I am mental…..he laughed and then I laughed…and well…he reckoned I was being very hormonal….turns out he was right!

Mr Grumpy turned up today and explains quite nicely why I have been angry, and retarded this last few days…well angrier than usual and I had absolutely no way to control myself.  I have been so irregular the last year I just have no idea what PMT is anymore or if I am just constantly suffering it.

Hubby is my rock. I really would be absolutely lost without him.  He is the calm to my thunderstorm and I honestly would not have made it to where I am today if not for him. I love him so much.

Missed a couple of exercise days

Yes I missed a couple of days due to my leg pain.  I did some research into the muscle pain you suffer and most people said to rest the area for a couple of days as you want the muscle to heal, this is what helps build stronger muscles.  If you continue to just tear them down (hence the pain) you will find they eventually wither away and become smaller……soo….that worried me 🙂  Anyway I then missed time due to Xmas which I think is fairly understandable 😀  However I got back into this morning, and I am going to push myself even harder in the next few weeks.

Also a funny thing, I had my scales in my workout room with me so I could weigh myself at the end of every week…..yeah….apparently carpet is not a good surface 🙂  It added an extra 10-15 kg’s to my actual weight…not that it matters as potentially I will be losing weight so it doesn’t matter what my start weight is…however – it does matter if it isn’t reading accurately.  So I have moved into it the bathroom.  I actually need to correct my starting weight on my sheets, i might do that after I post this up 😀

I am also going to take some pictures of my workout room to share, so you can all see how wonderful and bland it is!!  I need to get some motivational posters on the walls 😀  I might even do a collage of dresses/clothes/people/body shapes as well and help me focus on my goal 😀

So anyway Christmas was good.  My mum came up to spend the day with us, so I hope that cheered her up a little bit with the recent denial of her spouse visa she has not been dealing very well with everything.  We  had hubby’s mum down as well.  I bought Prawns!!!  YUMMOOOO!!  Stuffed myself silly to be honest, but you know it is the only day I actually by prawns, so I do go nuts 😀  We also had turkey and ham and roast veggies and then for desert we have hedgehog and fruit cake.  But I only had a small piece of each as I was conscious of the fact I had stuffed prawns in and I haven’t done any exercise!!  LOL

So today we are heading to a friends place for our normal boxing day drinking session.  Nothing major just sitting out talking, eating and drinking, it is always a nice day.

Hubby just showed me a few new exercise, which I am going to have to remember to do each day as well now.  Yes my plan is to do exercise every single day!!

I have to go and check on the silverside I have cooking, so I hope you all had lovely days yesterday and that Santa was good to you.  My Santa got lost in the USA somewhere and so none of our presents are actually here yet 😀  We are following them on tracking and they apparently are in melbourne……..just….not with us…..perhaps next week?  heheeh

Hugs and kisses to you all!!

 

This time of year just makes me sad

Yeah I know it is supposed to be about happy things etc, but you know, all I ever seem to think about is how much time I haven’t spent with the people I wanted to spend time with…..Christmas is a reminder of another year gone, how quickly it sneaks up on you.

Working, housework, cooking, exercising and spending time with hubby just takes up most of my year, then another weekend is gone and another week gets completed and before you know it, you are wondering how many times you actually saw X,Y,Z people this year.

Every year I keep telling myself, next year I will do more, catch up with people, get more involved….every year it is the same thing, everyone is so busy leading their lives as well and fitting everything in, you just don’t get to make dates work….

Not that enough of my friends or indeed family read this, but I do love each and every one of you- idiosyncrasies and all – and I really do regret that I missed another year of your lives and I wish you well for the coming year and let’s make sure we catch up regularly and attempt to have some sort of relationship happening.

Merry Soltice to you all and i will see you in the new year as I doubt I will get to updating this much over the coming week.  Hubby’s mum is coming down today and not heading home until Tuesday, so I will be entertaining her as much as possible.  Then well you know how it is, it is just a very busy time!

Hugs and kisses!

Me

Xmas, Uni and all that other stuff

I am loving the lack of heat we are experiencing….all this rain is wonderful!  So finally decided to contact hubby’s mum, she isn’t coming down for Xmas as she has a specialist appointment the day before.

I then rang my mother, who is trying to decide what she wants to do for Xmas, so I will confirm with her closer to the date.  Hubby is on call for Xmas which meanss he can’t leave the house and we can’t really have too much noise etc incase he needs to be on the phone.

So in preparation for the Xmas period we went “shopping” and didn’t have any luck with gifts….nothing we wanted to buy poeple was in stores…anywhere….was just horrible…so we may just have to resort to vouchers etc and hope people can deal with that 😀   Every year i say it, but next year – we are doing our Xmas shopping in October!!!  I SWEAR!!!!

My first assignment is almost complete and I am pretty proud of myself, I wonder if I can upload it somewhere 🙂  It may not be the most awesome design attempt, but i think it is pretty cool 🙂  I just have to make a few changes to the fonts and paragraphs and then validate the entire thing and hand it in!  It is due on the 9th Jan, but I am going to be in tassie then, so I want to get it completed and not have to worry about it 🙂 

I also have my first test next week….the week of the 27th….so I have to start studying and making sure I have everything under control.  I am not entirely sure I do though, but we can only hope!!  This is the first test I will have taken in over 10 years so even if I barely pass I will happy with that….I have rom for improvement over the coming months….I am just freaking out that I am even doing a degree!!

My legs are killing me by the way, after doing those squats the other night I can barely move!!  But I did some weights etc last night as well after all the walking around doncaster yesterday….I jumped on the scales and I think I may have lost 1kg already…..I know it isn’t much, but 1kg is 1 kg LOSS!!!  So that has given me some motivation.  I am not going to be jumping on the scales everyday as I know weight fluctuates etc.  But to even see that after only a couple of days…well I got a massive motivational boost. 

I am thinking of attempting walking today, but it will depend on my legs in all honesty….hubby suggested I have a bath with bicarb soda to draw out the acis….still a possibility.

I do have to go to the post office again today and ask them about the second parcel seeing as how I never got a phone call from the distribution centre about it…..NOT happy JAN!!  I was thinking abotu walking down there, but my concern is if they find the package I have to walk back with it….which is not an exciting prospect 😀

Busy day today :D

I have lots to do today, not sure I am going to fit it all in 😀

I have to go to the post office and pickup two parcels, go to the butcher and grab some meat for the impromptu BBQ we are having tonight, stop past woolies and get some salad stuffs, go past the baker as well.

I then have to come home, clean the bathroom, vacuum (yes with out new shiny vacuum cleaner 😀 ehehhehe) and clean up the dining table as it is covered instuff….I may acyually have to dust the lounge as well, which I will do before I vacuum.

After all that is done, I want to go for a walk again today and get some exercise in, the walk yesterday only took an hour, I just have to get started 😀 Might clean the house now before the shops are open then I am mostly done. It’s all about time management yes? LOL

Think I just got screwed?

Was on the phone with hubby about some stuff just now, and I think I just got screwed….not sure….tell me what you think?

One of my favourite bands is Anberlin. Hubby says they are emo crap, but I love them, I think they are just my kind of rock 😀 Almost perfect in musical stylings. Anyway, they are coming to Melbourne in March next year. Hubby just made a deal with me, that I can buy tickets and he will come with me (“and enjoy it and shut up”), providing I am a size 18 by then. If I have not achieved that goal, we are going to get rid of the tickets……………..I just can’t understand that last sentence, it hurts my brain just thinking about it.

That’s almost like saying, here is a lovely, chocolately, cake, but if you so much as sniff it we are going to take it away from you…GAHHHHHH!!!!!!! So….size 18 by March here we come!!! I have to do this. I want to see Anberlin!! No I NEED TO SEE ANBERLIN!!

Onto other news, we are getting rid of the mini, although the hubby loves his car, it is costing us so much money to keep it on the road it is not very practical anymore. BMW/Mini service centres are kind of useless as well, but that is whole nother story, let’s just say when I am taking the car in to be serviced or looked at – I want a price beforehand so I know what to budget/plan for…..to be told “we can’t give you an estimate” makes me pretty uncomfortable and makes me wonder if they just make up prices once the service has been done to get the most money because no one knew what the cost would be going in….I also don’t like the idea of turning up to get the car and being told we need to pay thousands of dollars – I just don’t have that kind of money sitting around you know?…… We are getting a good trade in on it for a VW Golf, so we now have a second car loan for a very small amount, which when i get a new job we will be refinancing the house and combining the two.

I am not keen on having a second car loan, however it should, in theory, only be for a short while.

I have to shott off now and set up one of our spare rooms as a workout room now!! EEP!!