Photography

I am toying with the idea of setting up a very basic website for my photography.  I have realised this last few months that I am not very good at photography that involves people….for some reason I cannot get a clean shot…however with my abstract and  landscape/macro stuff I think I get fucking awesome images…so I will just be focusing on that 🙂  I am not really wanting to make a living out of it, but it would be nice if people actually bought anything I shot…just because they liked it….I am not really sure I want to start paying for some of the fancy sites out there, when in the end – I am not really even going to try and make money out of it….Not sure though….it has just been something in the back of my mind.

At the moment, I am just going through all my images and placing a name tag on them…I know most of the time people can remove it if they are really keen, but it is just nice knowing it is on there and perhaps if people start seeing a name – subconsciously it will be remembered?  LOL….Mind you my images are nothing like the stuff I have seen….there are some brilliant photographers out there, and I mean jaw droppingly fantabulous photos are being produced….but you know – there are some fucking awful ones as well 😀  Each person likes a different style and with how many billion people in the world…potentially at least one person will like my images enough to buy one of them…providing I can get it out there enough 🙂  Well that’s my theory!

I was going through my images from Xmas and am a little disappointed actually as a lot of them are grainy…and I am not sure why…my camera is a pretty good quality one and I am baffled..it isn’t like they are out of focus…or maybe they are and it comes out grainy…i don’t know…but some were crystal clear; so perhaps it was just the focus….anyway I suck at people shots as I try to capture things without waiting the 3 seconds to focus…but the moment could be gone….gAHH!

So, I am currently just adding things to my G+ account, and I may make another photography circle; I deleted the last one as I was so despondent about everything and I figured I would never take another photo again, but Xmas Day and Boxing Day has made me realise how much I enjoy doing it….so I am just going to keep it in the back and let people enjoy or dislike my stuff as they see fit.  The important thing is that “I” get pictures that I like and no -one can take that from me 🙂

I wish I could show that kind of resolve in other areas of my life….like Uni etc….I am also join to call Melbourne Uni/VTAC this week and find out about the STAT test I am supposed to sit…..not that Melbourne Uni is the one I have to go to…however it does have a very awesome Arts program AND it is one of the more easy uni’s to get into….it is also very prestigious; I have to admit I really wouldn’t mind saying I finished my degree there…..is that shallow of me?  perhaps….

Anyway, once I speak to them, then I can decide on the work issue….I will keep pushing something like Coles/Woollies if I can get into Uni as I am then able to go to uni full-time (maybe) and still work enough hours somewhere to bring in enough money for us to live on.  I would rather go to uni full time as it will mean a degree will only take me 3 years as opposed to potentially 10…..We shall see though….I have to make phone calls before anything can move forward – at least I have a plan though.

My plan was also to get into a routine with exercise whilst on holidays and I have failed miserably at that.  I have done nothing….Xmas/NYE was very busy though and I just didn’t get a chance to stop…so the last thing I was thinking about was finding time to exercise…and since then all I have done is sit on my butt!  hahaahh  I need to take this next few weeks and make something of it.  But then the last week up where I am has been above 35 eve3ry day and I can barely function in that heat let alone exercise….today is not actually too bad, so I may find the motivation to do something…even if it just the first half of the kickboxing DVD I have.

My plan

This is my plan for the next couple of months.

I am doing the bike.exercise as much as I can for the next few weeks, until I am on leave from work, then I am going to get up at 5am and exercise for 40 minutes and jump into the shower.  I will then do another workout at some point in the day – lunch or early afternoon – and indeed perhaps both….

I am off work for a month, what I am hoping is that in that month I get used to getting up early and I start forming a habit – once I start back at work it will therefore hopefully be easier to stay in habit….

That is my hope….we shall see.

I have not heard back from the second job at woodend or the one in Kyneton I applied for.  I don’t want to follow up as I can’t handle being rejected….

Blogging, resume, work and stuff

General update as I have been a busy beaver the last few days.

My new and improved resume is almost done.  I have been taking a beating with it and I am telling myself repeatedly to sell myself.  So be prepared for a shock when you read this – it may actually sound impressive.  If I email it to you – please feel free to ask to see my old one so you can see the obvious improvements…..I am really happy with it so far….and I still have a few things to change – especially the formatting – I am not happy with that – but I am not focused on that as yet.

Work is chugging along, nothing much has changed there, I am hoping to have another job before Xmas – I know it will stuff up any chance of having holidays if I change then, but I would rather be able to move into a new year knowing I am somewhere that I like (fingers crossed hey?!)

I briefly closed own my blogs due to some harassment I was receiving.  I have decided to just ignore the idiots that feel it is ok to say nasty things and call me names.  I have my friends and they will tell me all I need to know, and in the end – if I want to whinge on my own damn web space, I will fucking whinge, and I will rant and I will scream, and laugh and be manic and you know what???  No one can stop me.  I guess, I decided I didn’t really care who reads this space or others, I don’t blog for the public, I make it public as may be someone drops past and makes a connection with something I say, but I am not bucking for readers, or followers.  I am just putting my thoughts out there for people to enjoy or ignore as they see fit.  I lost that somewhere.  I won’t ever make posts public that I have put things into that i wouldn’t actually say to people.

I am sorry for the hassle and the change of mind, but I enjoy blogging and I enjoy having it out there for others to connect to.  So I decided to change the layouts whilst they were private 😀

I have been harassing the hubby to write me this blog post about the changes he has seen and as yet, no luck…he keeps avoiding it…maybe I am not changed like I think I am..wouldn’t that be embarrassing??  hrmmm, might have to ask him about that today 🙂

I am also playing with studio lighting etc at home, but am finding it really difficult to get the hang of my camera – you know…I just kind of suck at the whole remember technical details…I really need to spend some time just trying to improve my recall abilities….

Other than that – my exercise comes and goes as you can tell on my other blog, but I am trying to do something every second day if nothing else….since I am home today, I want to do a workout and a bike ride…here’s hoping!

Anyway, back to my resume now….I have to get this finished so I can start applying for jobs.

 

 

Bah humbug

I haven’t really been writing much lately, because I just seem to have nothing worthwhile to say 🙂 The only really noteworthy thing that has happened is the bank stuffed up and sent our renewal visa debit card to our old address, someone nicked it out of the mailbox and then proceeded to use it:

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Happy Birthday :D

Every year I write a blog post on my birthday, have done so since 2003, and sometimes they are full of hope and life and excitment, other times they are filled with dread and despair.

This year is kind of just meh for me….the only real goal I have is to lose weight…this is going to be the year I put everything I have into it.  Every ounce of motivation, passion and hope.  I am funnelling it all into losing weight.

I don’t really feel as if I am having a birthday, perhaps I just don’t really care much about turning 33…am I 33 already?  Surely it is 32? oops, yup it is 32 😀  NICE…I added a year onto my age….that’s just WRONG!!!

I am going to be getting my bike L’s soon, as I still have a “want” to ride.  I want to lose enough weight that I can buy a nice bike and not feel huge on it and I want to be able to buy leathers that don’t make me look like the S & M version of the Stay puft Marshmallow man….All in good time of course 🙂

So to sum up my last year, I left MLC (finally), I started my degree (finally), we moved to Kyneton, we got back into our religious practices, my mother finally married the man of her dreams and got married, Hubby got some of the best birthday presents this year for his birthday, we bought a new VW and got rid of the troubled mini, we finally got rid of the old couch when it collpased, we have avoided getting any new credit cards, we have stayed on top of our bills (although no savings thanks to my pay cut), we started eating better (then kind of stopped), I lost 10kgs over Xmas with some hard work and training.

Of all these things, the only thing I am disappointed in is my lack of weight loss.  I wanted this last year to be the year when I could look back and admire my 70kg weight loss.  Looks like this will be that year instead, so I am going to push myself and ensure it happens this year!!  Next birthday I want to be able to brag and brag and brag!! 😀  Consider yourself warned.

I will be ensuring I update my weight loss/exercise blog – ponderosity.wordpress.com a fair bit more and I may add more than just my exercise for the night on there, such as PCOS weightloss challenge (which I missed this time round – so will start in August officially, and this week unofficially), food and other stuff.

Happy Birthday Onyxiia.

One of those days

Ever had one of those days where everything you do or touch gets fucked up.  That is me today 🙂

I can’t get my pc to do a zip file, I can’t load my website to submit my assignment, I can’t log into a site I wanted to get into, I spilt coffee all over myself, someone (who shall remain nameless) put the pegs on top of the washing machine so whilst on the spin cycle they went everywhere, i created a new email for job hunting and couldn’t get that set up on my phone and well many other things today happened.

Hubby has been telling me to calm down all day and so far it has just not worked.

So I cracked the shits and went for a workout, thought maybe some exercise might help release some happy high….found out all the songs on my iphone have been wiped at some point, so went to plug it back in but my computers won’t connect with Synergy so I can’t access my Itunes to update it.

Almost threw my phone and decided to stream radio – except they streamed nothing but advertisements for the 5 minutes I was jogging, so I stopped jogging and turned my phone off.  I continued my workout in silence.

I am waiting for the high to kick in but I actually have a headache now and I am wondering if I am dehydrated.  So I will be going to grab my water bottle when i finish this post and I will drink as much of that as I can 😀

Yup – ONE OF THOSE DAYS!!!!

And then I nearly posted this to my gaming blog!!!!  AARRGGGHHHH!!!!

My exercise room and stuff

At the top in my menu bar you will see “Tracking”  this will take you to my exercise tracking blog.  The only thing that is going to be on there is my exercise and weightloss, so kind of boring for anyone not interested, which is why I created a separate area for it.  I didn’t want to bore people here 😀  So feel free to drop past and check it out 😀

Also here are some piccies of my exercise room, it is a little bland as I said, I have to get the speakers hooked up and I need to get my fan back in there.  Yes I am aware the ironing board is probably not the most useful piece of exercise equipment but it does a bloody good job of holding the dumbells 😀

The above is the sign I have on my door 🙂

As you walk into the room, bad shot I know but I am not very good with room images 😀

Thats my stepper on the floor, it has 3 different levels of difficulty, so far I am only going to do it on the lowest level as I am finding that hard enough 😀 Dumbells on the ironing board, it’s just a perfect solution to not having them on the floor!!

This is on the wardrobe door, it is my chart which I write everything down on so I can track what I am doing!