really?…

Some days I should just not get out of bed.

I was actually  a little annoyed by the time I got home yesterday because I spent the entire afternoon picking at a scab, as it were, and running things over in my head repeatedly.

The situation…..

I don’t work fulltime, as far as I know because they can’t really afford to pay me, so I work 4 days a week and sacrifice a days pay – so…yesterday afternoon I had to help my S-mum pay $1052 for a pendant.   That’s almost 12 weeks pay for that extra day I could work….and I know it doesn’t sound a lot, but then neither does the contemplation of dropping $40k on jewellery – but not being able to pay me…

What’s even weirder is that she is now trying to get a part time job somewhere else to help them pay out their tax…nvm the one month holiday to the US they are taking next month…..

Yes, I thought about this all evening and it just made me sad….I got over the annoyance and was just sad about it.  Sad for her, sad for dad…pitying them I suppose….

Anger and Failure

I got angry last night, first night in a while I was angry…so very angry with hubby….we went for a walk – aiming to do this running in 2 months thing happening, and when I got back I did a vlog – for about 1 minute – not even and then hubby advised not to mention him in my blogs….

Considering they get sent to 3 of our friends, which I explained, he didn’t care – I was really put on the back foot.  I don’t know why or what his issue with it is considering I have been blogging about things since 2003, he has been mentioned many many times….

I am confused, hurt and annoyed by this, but in the end they are his wishes, so this will be the last blog with him mentioned in it.  I will no longer be blogging about him, and therefore I will probably not be blogging alot as I tend to mention him a fair bit.

Onto other things I am already having a bad day, my S-mum said she would be at work early today, it’s 10:17 – and she is not here, I had some woman just ring saying she has sent photos to S-mum’s phone and can she please call back and we are out of paper in the office.  So I try to get hold of S-mum – she wasn’t planning on coming into the office today, her phone is flat and her charger is at her holiday house….so she got short with me when I said that I had no paper and that I didn’t get the ladies number because I figured she would SMS her back….

I am sick and tired of this….really…I am not in the mood today….especially when she was going to stay home so she could do some washing….how is it MY FAULT – you told some woman to sms you when your phone was flat – how is it my fault you won’t let me order stationary and how is it my fault you leave your charger at the holiday house therefore forcing you to come to work and buy another charger…

I feel like i have had PMS for the last 3 weeks straight – I am always on the edge of irritable and annoyed and feel like snapping all the time….I am not happy about it….