Open Letter to Keith Urban

Yes, I know this is a strange heading, but I am going to do a couple of open letters in the next few days.  The idea has been pottering around in my head, and I feel it is time to get it out, hopefully there will be some positive in this – I want to find something to be positive about.

Dear Keith Urban,

I have been a fan of country music for a very long time, I don’t really know when it became a favourite style, but I seem to have always loved it.  There is something about the twangy guitars and the way some words are said over a mouthful of marbles that just resonates with me.  I confess to never really listening to your music, not for any other reason then I just didn’t listen to any one specific person or group all that thoroughly.  I tend to like one or two songs from an artist and dislike the rest. Of course I had heard of you and enjoyed the songs of yours that I did hear, but I was never urged to hear more.  I was perhaps a little too quick to judge a cute australian being able to do country music justice like our US counterparts – please don’t hate me for that!!

This changed recently whilst I was watching the first season of “The Voice”.  I was amazed that every time someone came out to audition you were singing along with the song, I have no idea why that had me intrigued, but it did.  You knew so many songs from so many genres and knew them well enough to mouth along with them, perhaps you missed one or two, but overall you were there.  I was impressed, I immediately went and bought an album of yours to listen to, a couple of weeks later, my hubby bought me “The story so Far”.  It has been quite a few months now, and I have not stopped listening to it on repeat.  That one album has done more for me over the last few weeks than I can even begin to thank you for.

I have been feeling a little…deathwishy lately.  I am not suicidal..I couldn’t do it, however I do want to die to stop the crap I am going through.  Your album is the one thing that gets me through each and every single day.  I couldn’t tell you why or how or what about it makes me feel so much better, but every time I put my headphones on and I hit the play button, I am so happy to be alive and listening to you.  There is something about that album that makes me smile, sing along with and move my thoughts to all the good things in my life.  It is completely uplifting for me.

You could say I have a dependancy on it now as when I turn it off or stop listening to it, I really struggle to get my emotions under control again.  I know that sounds bad, but it is such an improvement on a few months ago when I just couldn’t stop thinking about dying, I owe you my life.   Ok, that was possibly a little melodramatic but it is true, a few weeks ago I was at my lowest point and I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel it was your songs that got me through it.  I am still a very long way from being ok, I know that, but I felt it was important that I let you know the profound affect you have had on my life.  I would potentially be just another suicide statistic if it wasn’t for you and I am certain my husband is glad I watched that first season of “The Voice” now.

I guess I really wanted to thank you for making music and being such a fantastic artist, for having such uplifting and inspiring songs and for helping one Aussie in a sea of billions keep going through all the crap.

Thank you Keith Urban.

Regards

When the rain starts

Autumn is finally here 🙂 daylight savings ended on the weekend and it has been raining and drizzling for most it as well.

It is dark so early now and there is a chill in the air:) the nrl is into the first few rounds already and the seasons change.

Autumn is my favourite time of year. Birthdays and gorgeous colours in the earth make it perfect in my mind!

Anyway riverdance last night was pretty good, not as good as the last time I saw them but in all honesty if you were not an obsessed fan like me you would not have known the difference 🙂 hubby bought me a coffee mug and a tshirt -I love them both and is now an extra incentive to continue losing weight.

I have been very slack but I just don’t have time to travel this far every day and still have some semblance of home life…. I will stick it out a little longer then I will have to look for work closer to home.

I handed in an assignment yesterday morning and my second one is due this week. I also find out my exam results today I think….must check that 🙂

I am jumping off the train in a second so will write more later 🙂

O M G MUSE!!!!

Yes, YES YESS!!!

I have just bought 2 tickets to MUSE in December.  The tickets are not on sale until 07/06/10 but my work has presale tickets available 😀 

So hoepfully they will be in a good position being they are presale presale tickets AND given to a corporate deal I am sure 🙂 

I am sooo stocked!!!  December 14th in your diaries people!!  Rod laver arena here we come!!  Should have the tickets some time next week – will have to find a very safe place to keep them until then!

Lucky I checked the email !!

AM SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!

Song of the week

Fallen – Sarah
Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I’ve held so dear.

I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don’t see
But it’s one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

The only exception

 Second song of the day:

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I’m content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t
Let go of what’s in front of me here
I know your leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I’m on my way to believe in.
Oh, And I’m on my way to believe in.

All I wanted

Song of the moment:

Think of me when you’re out, when you’re out there
I’ll beg you nice from my knees
And when the world treats you way too fairly
Well it’s a shame i’m a dream

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I think I’ll pace my apartment a few times and fall asleep on the couch
Wake up early to black and white re-runs
That escape from my mouth

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning
Just to re-live the start
Maybe then we’ll remember to slow down
At all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you