Of course this goes out to my hubby, he has stood by me through everything and has not ever treated me like dirt.
He will never ever know how grateful I am for him, and how much I regret some of the things that happened when I was dealing with the rape. I know the pressure and uncertainty I put him through and I was horrible to him. Had he not been who he is, I would have lost him and had he not stood by me when I was nuts I would not have come through it and be trying to become a better person.
He has spent 11 years making me feel like I am the only one person in the world and he has never ever let me down. I live every day because he is in my life and spending time with him is the only reason I get out of bed some mornings.
I know I still get grumpy and sometimes feel hurt by things he says but in all honesty it is because I misunderstand him or read things into whatever was said – simply put: I put words in my own head which just don’t exist!