I just don’t understand it, I don’t think I will ever understand it.
I had an email today from a recruitment agency that I spoke to months ago with a position they felt I should/would/could apply for.
Except…I have no serious experience in complaints handling other than the general stuff you deal with as an account manager and i can tell you now – it is NOT a career path I would choose willingly.
So she wants me to tailor my resume to highlight the complaints management I did at my previous employer…of which would be 5% of my role. Not much I can highlight there.
I just feel so completely useless again…I was finally beginning to get over the last bout and now I am right back down there, I know I shouldn’t let it get to me, but there are no words that make it ok.
I am so lacking in self worth at the moment that I can’t even apply for jobs at all – haven’t for months because I know with certainty I am useless…i am not going to get offered anything and I am not even worth the air I breath.
Yes I am smiling and putting on a good show with the laughing but on the
inside I am screaming and violently angry.
I have no way to safely release all the pain and do I just bottle it up. If I cry then hubby gets worried and there is nothing he can do for me.
All I want for Christmas is a job paying what I was on last year