Such an easy answer for this one, I need to forgive myself for being such a jerk/asshat/bitch/mole/ etc etc.
I have spent a large portion of my life, being angry and upset with people for the wrong reasons – for not being able to admit I saw issues in myself. So I took it out on others.
I caused fights because I couldn’t admit I was hurting or wrong, because I expected more from people, because what I wanted to happen simply didn’t happen and because I knew – in my heart – I was angry at myself a lot of the time. I am not saying all the time and that some of the anger wasn’t justified, however a large portion wasn’t.
I need to let go of the guilt, feel the pain and then move past it. I do need to forgive myself for not being true to me and being a better person.