OK, so this is my last 3 days at work, and I am starting to feel the stress and uncertainty that is life after this place. 10 years with the one company and leaving without a job to go to is freaking me out. But I would prefer that to the tears and self loathing I have come to start thinking of as normal.
I have started my degree and to be honest I think I am stupid – my brain is not understanding most of the concepts in the course material, but hubby just tells me I am being silly. Hopefully getting out of this place with allow me to build my confidence back up again. I think I am just not sure of myself anymore or my researching abilities…fingers crossed I can change that quickly 😀
Thanks to the massive nab stuffups this weekend as well I have no idea how much money we have – I was supposed to buy a treadmill this weekend, however hubby’s pay only went in this morning – should have been Friday – and we still have duplicate amounts showing in our online banking. So the tready may have to wait until I get my actual payout from work as I can’t figure what money we actually have at the moment.
So will start my exercise regime without the tready, but considering the rain we are having, I really wish I had one. I don’t want to walk outside in the public domain – poeple can see me…and I don’t want to be seen. I am so uncomfortable and unfit – I get all red faced and puffy and I don’t want to be out there where people can see me and make fun of me….Bah humbug is all I can say!