Last Stretch

OK, so this is my last 3 days at work, and I am starting to feel the stress and uncertainty that is life after this place.  10 years with the one company and leaving without a job to go to is freaking me out.  But I would prefer that to the tears and self loathing I have come to start thinking of as normal.

I have started my degree and to be honest I think I am stupid – my brain is not understanding most of the concepts in the course material, but hubby just tells me I am being silly. Hopefully getting out of this place with allow me to build my confidence back up again.  I think I am just not sure of myself anymore or my researching abilities…fingers crossed I can change that quickly 😀

Thanks to the massive nab stuffups this weekend as well I have no idea how much money we have – I was supposed to buy a treadmill this weekend, however hubby’s pay only went in this morning – should have been Friday – and we still have duplicate amounts showing in our online banking.  So the tready may have to wait until I get my actual payout from work as I can’t figure what money we actually have at the moment.

So will start my exercise regime without the tready, but considering the rain we are having, I really wish I had one.  I don’t want to walk outside in the public domain – poeple can see me…and I don’t want to be seen.  I am so uncomfortable and unfit – I get all red faced and puffy and I don’t want to be out there where people can see me and make fun of me….Bah humbug is all I can say!

 

 

Finding it hard now

With only 3.5 days to go I am finding it hard to keep the focus and drive to do any work at all..  My plan for the day was to clear all my work from my personal queue and then not allocate myself anymore, but even getting through the 30 cases I have sitting there is proving difficult – I am just procrastinating my way through the day.

I don’t want my advisers to get upset with the lack of service, but honestly, I just can’t seem to keep the momentum going!!

Spoke to another recruitment agency today, I am meeting up with them on the 8th for an interview and discussion about what I want etc.  She was impressed with my resume said I had some wonderful experience etc 🙂  So that is 3 recruitment agencies who have all been impressed with my experience – always a good sign I think 😀

CRAP, just realised I have my speicalist on the 8th…I may have to change it with her when she sends me an email to confirm!!  I wasn’t even thinking when she said the date….lucky i remembered.

4.5 days to go

We had a monthly staff meeting today with the entire floor.  It will be my last one.  I was a little sad if I am honest that I will not be part of this anymore.

On the flip side to that is that I not be part of this anymore 😀

I have 4.5 days to go and I never have to walk into this building ever again 😀  I never have to see an application again and I never ever have to deal with these idiots again 😀

I am not really able to express the excitement I feel at this.

I have started my degree as well,printed out all my notes for the 12 weeks and I will start on them this weekend.  Need to get my computer sorted out and ensure I have everything sorted out for my studies.

 

Bah humbug – spouse visa stuff

Mum didn’t hear anything yesterday morning, so she called me in hysterics about it.  She was going off her head at Australia and how we are arseholes essentially, and what I don’t have the heart to tell her when she is on a rant, because she is upset, is that it is not Australia, it is a bunch of people, processing paperwork who don’t give a shit.  They don’t have any connection to my mother or the situation and they don’t care about each person – if they did I am sure they would never get anything done.  I am sure they deal with more than just one case a day and I would hazard a guess that over the years they have seen everything and therefore they are desensitized to people’s concerns.

I am not saying it is right or justified or even fair, but I just think taking it out on Australia is not really where the blame needs to be laid.  Get onto the human rights commission and take them to court for negligence or whatever, lay the blame where it is deserved.  I know if I said this mum would probably argue the poin that she has written to the prime minister and haven’t heard a response so again Australia sucks, but to be fair – the prime minister also has a job to do – and she probably never saw any letters – you have to wonder at the type of mail politicians get every day – people who screen again probably don’t really give a rats arse about one person asking for help or being angry or whatever.

Anyway my point to all of this, is that the department of immigration are just being dicks.  They keep promising mum an answer – so far they keep moving the date and it drives me mad that they can’t just keep to their promises or at least let her know the day before that it is going to be delayed etc.  My mum was completely out of her mind yesterday and I am pretty certain she must have the best employer in the world to let her take so many days off because of all this.

I worry that she is going to lose her job and her husband and her mind before this is all done and I am not the type to let that lie.  I have over the last few weeks considered writing a scathing letter to the department about this, but I kind of want to wait until a decision has at least been made before i do that.  That way if it a negative decision my scathing letter can be even more scathing….if he is approved, I might make it a disappointed letter but not quite scathing….

One of mum’s commenters on her blog said they should do a campaign in letters – and while in theory – that sounds great – mum’s hubby doesn’t have the cleanest history and I would hate for that to be the straw that broke their back on this.  I don’t mean clean as in illegal etc, but he was removed from the country because of idiocy and they may just back themselves up again if we push them to the edge.

Mum did write a post about how we shouldn’t be scared of our country and we should be able to stand up – but in the end – i disagree with her on that.  I would rather shut up, behave and not rock the boat if it means I am not screwing my partners chances of being here with me.  They have the power in this situation – and we need to wait on them.  Being a control freak like my mum, I know how hard this must be for her, I know what it is like not being able to have the answers immediately.

Anyway, fingers crossed we hear something today……fingers crossed every day.. 😦

So it continues

Still having problems of the female variety.  I just can’t afford to take any more sick days given I only have 10 more working days left….Once I am out of here I will see a gyno and get some further advice, however I know what their response will be….I need to lose weight….so December is going to be the start of that, I am hoping that once I get my treadmil and am doing at least 1.5 hours a day on it, I should lose weight…hubby and I are going to go into vegetarian mode again – just have vegies and salads as food.  Cut out meat, bread, potatoes and possibly do a detox as well to get off the sugar and coffee and other things that need to be expelled.

Combined with the increase in exercise I am hoping to lose at least 10kgs in december…well that’s my goal…It’s probably too high a goal, but you have to aim for the top to achieve anything I reckon.

I just want to bleeding to stop.

On the upside the wound on my back has finally healed I think, it has been over 3 weeks and no blood or opening and this morning I couldn’t even feel where the wound actually is.  So it looks like it may have actually healed up.  This is a great thing!!!  Means something is finally going right.

Onto other news, my mum has been promised a decision on the spouse visa on Tuesday morning (our time) so if all goes well the new family could be out here by the weekend, which is awesome for her.  Fingers crossed we actually do get an answer but I have little faith in them actually doing what they say.  So I am not holding my breath and will wait until mum actually calls me and tells me what the decision is.  It could still be a negative, but mum isn’t considering that as an option.

Don’t read this if your squeamish about periods :D

Let’s jusy say I am having a crappy period this month.  I will put details behind the cut for those that don’t like reading about it, please skip over it.   Everyone else feel free to offer me your “awwws” and “ahhhhs” and give me many hugs and back rubs ok?

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This is my life…why I resigned.

**Hi All,

This is bullshit!!!

Why does it always have to get a point that I want to put bombs until people to get anything done at XXXX (you excluded Bobby and I should not have to get you involved when I am meant to have priority service).

Mel what are you doing??, I thought priority service was meant to help – I may as well be dealing with every other Tom, Dick, Harry and Kevin in the service centre and I would get things completed quicker.

In addition I am sick of the excuses Company this Company that/transition/new process – I don’t care!!!

I would appreciate your feedback Mel – between these policies there would be $20K of commission get it fixed today! – I want to be paid

And also feel free to forward this to higher authority.

This is an email I received today, which has now gone about 8 level managers above me, defending me and why this kind of thing is unacceptable, however the damage is already done.

I am very upset and after investigating the cases he is going on about, I didn’t even have anything to do with the problems on them.  2 of the 4 cases were fucked up by other people in my team, the 2 I did were correct and have not had the second stages completed by another department – of which I have no control.

This is exactly the type of stuff I have to manage every day and is a massive part of why I have resigned.  There gets to a point where you don’t want to be taking this kind of shit anymore.  I already feel like a little nub of a person, and I don’t want to manage relationships anymore. I don’t want to be the person people attack when the company can’t get their shit together.  I am NOT going to be that person anymore.

Get fucked!

I cannot express how good I feel right now, knowing I only have 3 more weeks to go and after that he can deal with every other fuckwit, cunthead and wanker in the place, because I will have gone!

 

**I have removed/changed names (except my own) and company names.