Yup, I just counted them on my diary, with a little countdown for my reference. Just 54 days, that’s all I have to keep my cool for, but you know what just walking to the building this morning and I got angry and annoyed and wanted to committ murder, and that was before I had walked in.
Yes it is defiantely time to leave this place if that is how I feel just walking towards the building. This place and the people and everything about it just make me hate everything…
Last night I was in tears at how worthless I feel and how worthless I have let this place make me feel – this is now moving into other areas of my life so that if someone makes an offhand comment I take offence because I see it as an attack at my worth. Justitfied, perhaps, paranoid, maybe…who cares it is how I feel.
there are drums at work today – african or soemthing and they are fucking pissing me off!!!!! Time for headphones I think and perhaps some calming music to inspire me for the day….
Doubt that will happpen in this fucking shit hole of hell….